It's been almost half a year since the change in my life.
30th May actually marked our 10th anniversary together. To be honest, there are still days when I wake up and wonder if all that happened was just a dream but on some days I glad it happened before it got too late.
Ever since then, I've been very thankful to know that there are so many people out there who have my back. All the encouraging texts/emails/DMs that would bring a huge smile to my face.
People always ask how can I remain so calm and strong after all these drama cos all I did was continue posting my ootds etc. Not many knew but during the first few days, I chose to hide at home and did all things self destruct. (no suicidal thoughts of cos) I couldn't eat nor sleep cos the heartache was so unbearable that it felt like someone stabbed my heart.
Good thing after a week or so, with the help of my closed ones, I concluded that nobody in this world cannot live without another person. All the 'how do I live without you' doesn't really happen in reality.
I know there are some of you out there who are still struggling to move on... To save yourself, you need to fill your days with activities - I'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing that mine occurred during the festive period, Xmas then Cny. It was indeed awkward when my relatives gave me x2 angbaos and when non believed what happened. But yes, instead of hiding in your room and refusing to meet anyone, it's definitely a better idea to spend your everyday to the fullest. Tire yourself so much everyday that you don't even have the time to brood over it when you get back home at the end of the day.
It was really a struggle removing him from my r/s status on fb so I'm glad my friend insisted in doing so for me. As for IG, god knows why but I got blocked by both of them within a week or so. When you don't get any updates, you tend to think less about it. Hopefully as time goes by, you will be able to remove them from your memory. Have faith, I strongly believes that everything happens for a reason. 'When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.'
I know all these are easier said than done but I truly hope to forgive and then forget as time goes by. After all, I don't want to live with the burden for the rest of my life. With that, all the best to everyone reading this post. If you are in a long r/s, cherish and love your partners even more. If you're still lost, do yourself a favour and set yourself free.